"Worship power, you
will end up feeling weak and afraid, and you will need ever more power
over others to numb you to your own fear.
Worship
your intellect, being seen as smart, you will end up feeling stupid,
a fraud, always on the verge of being found out. But the insidious thing
about these forms of worship is not that they're evil or sinful, it's
that
they're unconscious. They are default settings.
"They're the kind of worship you just gradually slip into, day after day,
getting more and more selective about what you see and how you measure
value without ever being fully aware that that's what you're doing.
"And the so-called real world will not discourage you from operating on
your default settings, because the so-called real world of men and money
and power hums merrily along in a pool of fear and anger and frustration
and craving and worship of self. Our own present culture has harnessed
these forces in ways that have yielded extraordinary wealth and comfort
and personal freedom. The freedom all to be lords of our tiny skull-sized
kingdoms, alone at the center of all creation. This kind of freedom has
much to recommend it. But of course there are all different kinds of
freedom, and the kind that is most precious you will not hear much talk about
much
in the great outside world of wanting and achieving. ... The really important
kind of freedom involves attention and awareness and discipline, and
being able truly to care about other people and to sacrifice for them over and
over in myriad petty, unsexy ways every day.
"That is real freedom. That is being educated, and understanding how to
think. The alternative is unconsciousness, the default setting, the rat
race, the constant gnawing sense of having had, and lost, some infinite
thing." -David Foster Wallace, address to the class of 2005 at Kenyon College |